Efrat Alony 'Am I a stand in - for myself?'

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Efrat Alony: vocals, electronics, composition Vincent Pongracz: clarinet, electronics Raphael Preuschl: bass András Dès: percussion Am I a stand in for myself? / E. Alony A dark black sea its blue- evaporated even its echos – wiped out with the absence of words (which can no longer form into thoughts) the recourse of retention - will vanish Am I a stand in for My-self? Or a self I used to be When feelings ran deep And the river bed - Too wild to even approach A self Frozen In a little box Which hasn’t been open yet Protected by Fear of being torn apart into little pieces I won’t be able to put back together Many little partial- selves Scattered On a wooden floor In a cabin On a mountain No one will ever be able to find „A My-self Buried Under layers of LIFE Of the adulthood-suffocating child’s eyes Of Ex-pec-ta-tions I could never do right by (By you By yous By them By my- self) A self Buried under layers of dreams So painfully close , almost So you could smell the new house you'd be moving into Only to find a Self, a moment later, devastated, as the house evaporated into smoke ואין עוד זמן ואין עוד זמן